UGH... guess i'm not meant for non-working
It's going on 2 months since I was fired. At first, I was relaxed, getting a full nights sleep and didn't worry about the next phase because I was (and am) looking for something better than the previous gig.
But in the recent few weeks, my sleep pattern has changed in that i can't sleep through the night. The F.U.D. has started to kick in, my focus is all over the place, and it doesn't help being a single man with no one to confide in. At least with a better than full time job there's less time to throw a pity party for your loneliness. Less time to question your value and abilities. Less time to get caught up in unnecessary interpersonal dramas.
All this to say... I need to start working again, OR need to win a whole lot of money so I don't have to worry any more. Ahhhhhh, to not have to worry about money anymore, to spend how I see fit with no consequences. To travel the county on a whim, to jetset the globe and see how other people live. That's what I think I'd really enjoy. That and a home of my own. Something akin to an industrial building that I could customize to my liking. With plenty of room for crafts (woodworking, 3d printing, foundry / jewelry making). It's a dream I have...
That's all for the moment. Gotta vent. Can't keep this stuff in.
To those who find this blog, thank you for reading.
Be good to the ones you care about.
P.E.ace
But in the recent few weeks, my sleep pattern has changed in that i can't sleep through the night. The F.U.D. has started to kick in, my focus is all over the place, and it doesn't help being a single man with no one to confide in. At least with a better than full time job there's less time to throw a pity party for your loneliness. Less time to question your value and abilities. Less time to get caught up in unnecessary interpersonal dramas.
All this to say... I need to start working again, OR need to win a whole lot of money so I don't have to worry any more. Ahhhhhh, to not have to worry about money anymore, to spend how I see fit with no consequences. To travel the county on a whim, to jetset the globe and see how other people live. That's what I think I'd really enjoy. That and a home of my own. Something akin to an industrial building that I could customize to my liking. With plenty of room for crafts (woodworking, 3d printing, foundry / jewelry making). It's a dream I have...
That's all for the moment. Gotta vent. Can't keep this stuff in.
To those who find this blog, thank you for reading.
Be good to the ones you care about.
P.E.ace
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