A Meloncoly Sunday...

It's my first Sunday off in 5 months, I'm alone and missing the closeness of others. I'm missing my family very much. I'm missing the love of another. It's not that I'm feeling sorry for myself, I'm just feeling lonely and disconnected from the world. 

It's 10 days til my 40th birthday. I think it's starting to sink in and mess withmy head a little. I'll manage, I'm stronger than that, I have had to be in the past and will be in the future. There's no other choice. 

A meloncoly Sunday... followed by a balls to the wall Monday. Everything will be fine once the swelling goes down (thanks pop).

Valentines Day 2010 - WTF

It's 2010. Over the past 3 years I've tried to be "monogomus" with one woman. I've tried to be faithful and shower her with tokens of affection (and at an average of $250 a pop I'd say those were nice tokens). Trinkets from Tiffany's, a kickass flat screen tv, I've done pretty well in my humble opinion but what I've received in return has been bullshit in comparison. 

That said, this valentines day I once again got the short end of the stick. No goodies, no presents, no sex, no anything. I even had to send a message of valentines to get one back. I've tried, and then tried to maintain... FUCK IT!. If she want's me she can contact me. I'm not going out of my way any more. She says be patient - it's been 4 months since I've seen her - she's not even trying anymore. I'll respond if she contacts me but I'm not going to be the one to reach out. My efforts are wasted. Time to start looking elsewhere for love and affection and physical contact. 

Happy Fucking Valentines Day! - FUCK YOU HALLMARK!

1 Month Away...

Just a note... In a month I'll hit the big 4-0. How time flies. Who'd have thought I'd live past the statistics. Time to put a plan in place so I can live another 40yrs.


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