Another Semi-Lazy Sunday, Alone...

Over the past 7 months I went from being with a good woman who took the time to see me on a weekly basis to being without a steady female companion at all. At one time in my life I could easily point the finger at myself and say that I didn't try or show that I cared, but not this time. Actions are supposed to speak louder than words so I showed that I cared. I bought things. Not because I had to but because I wanted to (jewelry, electronics, chocolate) I wanted to show basic feelings for her. I kept in contact everyday (txt messages are great when you have nothing to say) and I told her what she ment to me, in person. In the end it would seem that none of that mattered. Now I hear from her maybe once a week, less than that if I don't initiate a txt message. I haven't seen her/touched her physically in 7months. She made my time off something to look forward to, she made me happy.

But 7 months is a long time to be without affection and she seems to have no more use for me in her life. So it's time to make myself available to the public again. Time to get in shape, clean the apartment and get some new clothes...

I still care for her a lot and I'd do anything for her. But on days like this I miss her. I miss her company, her friendship, her presence, her touch and even her understanding of my life. Even though I miss her it's time to move on. There's bound to be a woman out there that can understand me, want to be with me. I don't want to be the sole focus of her life, but I don't want to simply be an afterthought as I have been in so many other womens lives. 

That's all for now...

Saw something interesting today...

I'm on the MAX, and some girl gets on and starts asking people to use their cellphone whole she's already using her phone. Some guy offers his and she's bouncing back and forth etween phones getting information. When she's done he takes his phone back THEN offers her some of his gummi snacks! She accepts. They smile and laugh then she's off at the next stop.

It made me smile and think that even in this " me me me world " some people can share and then share some more and not think twice about it. Whereas others are so filled with bile that the idea of even giving simple directions causes them emotional pain.

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