another father's day is at hand...

Another year Father's Day approaches and I am once again alone with no prospects of being a father. It's never more obvious than around the holidays. But it's also more prevalent than when there's a family function like the graduation of a niece or nephew. 

The key words are "niece" or "nephew"... when the words should be "daughter" or "son". At 40yrs old those words are quickly slipping from my grasp. Each year, my age is more obvious, my pay scale doesn't get much higher, saving money is more difficult, and to concept of a successor to the genepool is becoming more of a vague idea, the glimmer of a dream.

Over the past year few years I've made the effort to be a good man, a good companion. It has been for nought as I have been kick to the curb and forgotten by the women in my life. Do I deserve it? It's possible. I'm not the worlds greatest lover but I've probably shown my womaning side in the past and now it's coming back to bite me in the ass. 

Uggh... I guess I just want some happiness like everyone else before I'm too old to enjoy it. A little appreciation for just being me. Mothers get that... Fathers get that... what about the rest of us who don't have children but are there to support the others? 

That's enough of the pity party for the night.
Peace to all.