Confusion, when you just want to get by...

Most Americans work a regular 9to5, and many more of us work longer than that with the fear of losing that job if they work less. So what are we supposed to do when we finally get those precious 48hr off?

I woke up this morning, sans alarm clock, at the same time that I normally go to work. My head has been racing and foggy ever since. Thoughts running through my head about work, my life, my father, people that a care for dearly but aren't available. I worry about where my life is going, or if it's going anywhere. I think of the problems in the world but that's just extra mental stress since the problems in America can't even be approached or discussed without someone taking offense at the topics which need discussion.

Once again, I don't know the path to follow. Even worse, I don't seem to have the knowledge or means to make my own path. It's another day in which I'm in my head again. Only this time there's no one that I can turn to, to vent or get comfort or discuss my life or life in general.

Maybe it's the "mid-life crisis", maybe I need to find something other than work to preoccupy my time. May be time to learn something new, find a new path for my life.

PEace.

This is my 200th post on "...life of a fat man".
I would like to thank those that found my little place on the web and continue to keep reading from time to time. Hope this blog hasn't been too boring. It's my life and at times it's very routine and boring. Especially since I left my job within the adult industry. The brief bits of happiness and joy are few but they happen. I'll make the effort to share those bits as they come along and not whine so much. Maybe I'll try to remember some of the good times, the fun times and share those memories. Thanks again. Live, Love & Laugh.