The New Year... Where am I headed

When I was a child, I wanted to follow in my father's footsteps and become a photographer. As I got older I changed and wanted to become an architect but I still had notions of photography, to be a Playboy photographer to be exact. But life and family have a way of forcing you to pick a lane, make a decision. So I chose to learn graphic design. With that I've tried to find my path and make my mark. That plan came to an end and I had to start over again. Since then I've worked to clear my student debt and do a good job. Where do I go from here? There's more to life than just work, but I've spent so much of my time just working that I've missed out on living. I've missed out on birthdays, parties, sharing my life with a special woman, having children, being with and having a family.

I know that this was a choice I made, but what do I do now? I can't do the bar scene anymore. Online dating is more miss than hit. Other women who have been in my life just used me as an ATM or have moved on to other/better men. I don't know what it takes to catch the attention of women anymore (maybe I never really did). I don't turn heads. I'm not eloquent with my words. I dress well, but not well enough to garner attention. So what should a man more ordinary do?

It's a new year. A time for resolutions and change. Though I'm not big on the "new year, new you" notion but something has gotta change in order for my life to change. In order for me to have a future, and not be alone. In order to live a better life. I don't know... this change might be more than what I can handle.

To those that find this blog, live the best you can.
Life is strange and wonderful, with ups and downs. Find someone and share your world with them.

Peace and happy 2016