Thanksgiving...

On Thanksgiving Day people tend to spend time with family, eat food, watch football and eat more food. To that I say - YES!!! EAT DRINK LIVE AND LOVE!

We give thanks for the good things in our lives and the people we love. To that I say - YES! EAT DRINK LIVE AND LOVE!

For some reason today, I've felt the influence and love of those that have passed on. Emma Boyd - Great Grand Mother. Marie & Preston  Baldwin - Grand Mother & Father. Ivra Anderson - Grand Mother. Madero Hilburn - Grand Father. They have been in my heart and thoughts this day. I have felt their love and know that they loved me. And it has made a difference today. 

There are people who have passed on that will always have an impact on your life. And though this is all too cliche, as long as you remember them they are still here and are a part of you. 

Happy Thanksgiving One and All.
EAT DRINK LIVE AND LOVE!

I won. So why do I feel like shit...

Nearly every workplace in America has football pools, raffles or company giveaways at some time or another. We finally had a raffle with a decent prize, iPad 3rd gen with 16gb of storage & wifi. I bought my tickets like everyone else did and surprisingly I won. The company tech-head, that already has an iPad, won the new iPad. Others here would be bouncing off the walls, gloating about the win, showing it off. Instead I'm confronted by the knowledge that there are others here that could use it more, have been here longer and feel that they don't get any recognition from the company. That managment doesn't give a fuck about the rest of the workers (which is bullshit). I also look at what I'm trying to do, which is raise some money for a trip to see my folks / vacation.

I can see empathize with some of the sentiment  but it's not true and though I would like to be the good guy and hand it over to who I think should have one, I'm not so altruistic. I paid for my tickets, I won, it's mine. I can't simply give it away. If it could've replaced my current iPad, I'd have given my old iPad to my folks and kept the new one. I'd have no qualms about that, my family comes first. 

I've thought and thought and thought and I need to sell it. I won't get retail for it but it should bring in a little cash for the trip. Maybe I can sell it to some one here at work. If not, it's going on ebay. I know I can get a good price there.

I am still vexed by winning this, and I shouldn't be. I don't know… I figure it out.