will i ever be happy?

Tonight I met a woman who made me release my inner demons and allow her to understand me. She went by "E" "Beth" "Elizabeth". 

Once again, the right woman, the wrong time. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. She said that I am surrounded by protection. Surrounded by protecting women. I understand that to a point. I'm a man. I need women. I need the connection of a woman. Any woman guardians need to let me be a man without hindering their protection. 

Maybe when the right woman comes around they'll let their guard down. But as for now, it's giving me the stink of desparation!

Ms "E", don't flee my life. You have my contact information. USE IT!