The iPhone 3GS has arrived...

Well after all the hype, all the waiting, all the rumors, the iPhone 3GS is now in hands of the people. And I am one of those people. I was an early adopter for the first gen iPhone and I was only able to get the 8GB (the 16GB came out later). Yes I envied those who bought the 16gb and then the 3G iPhone. I would have loved to have the boosted data connection and extra storage but I waited...

And I believe it has paid off. I now have the iPhone 3Gs with 32GB of storage, 600mhz processor, 256mb of ram, improved graphics and same sleek form as the 3G iPhone. It's damn sexy! I won't need a new cellphone for quite some time though I will probably have iPhone envy next year when Apple releases the next generation iPhone with more ram, propriatary processor that will no doubt rival most netbooks and who knows what else. But I'll survive. I don't make it a habit to upgrade my gear everytime there's a new version. So my 32GB storage and 600mhz iPhone 3GS will suite my needs until the next major revision (in 2 years). 

It's hard to believe that a handful of plastic & electronics could bring joy to my day but it did. Can't wait to get home and fire it up - or at least just get it home safely. 

Now where's that jailbreak software at?

PEACE,

Palm Pre leeches onto iTunes

Back in the late 90's Palm was the undeniable king of PDA's. Though it's connect/sync software sucked, the actual devices were awesome. Palm was also one of the first producers of the so-called "smartphone". Again kick ass devices that paved the way for the current generation of smartphones (iPhone, Blackberry, Android, Symbian). 

Since then Palm has lost it's way and lost it's dominance in the smartphone market. But is trying to make a comeback with the Palm Pre and it's WebOS. A "feature" they are claiming is that the Pre can be synced with the Apple iTunes software. Previous Palm devices have had this ability through third party software. I don't think that Apple viewed this a a threat or problem then as it wasn't Palm producing the "hack". The difference now is that Palm has this hack built-in and is calling it a feature. What happens when people begin to depend on a "feature" that can be broken at Apple's whim? 

It's great that the Pre can use iTunes for music management but a better solution would be for Palm to create their own media management software that can access iTunes information & files and not worry about any veiled threat from Apple. Palm was great once and they could be again but they have to step up their game not just be an also-ran or a use-to-be. Like a said it's a nice hack/feature but it's not the kind of thing that will win necessarily over new or former Palm users like myself. Palm obviously has the talent to produce a great smartphone, they should also be able to produce a great sync client to rival iTunes, not just latch on to it.

The mind in a fog...

I couldn't get to sleep until 2-2:30am this morning. When the alarm went off at 5:30am I got up, my head in a fog feeling as though I hadn't gone to sleep at all. I'm not tired, just not rested. I should be able to maintain alertness today but it will be difficult as it's a very slow time of the year at Portland Meadows. 

Time to get moving, gotta get motivated and produce...

What does it mean, if anything...

I shouldn't be surprised at the fact/realization of my former girlfriend & landlord is in fact married. She's beautiful, smart and deserves that kind of love & happiness. I can only wish her the best and hope that it lasts a lifetime.

But this makes for the third "ex" in my life that has made it known to me that she is/getting married. As I am less than a year from turning 40yo, I find these situations to be more of a head-shaker. Not that they couldn't or shouldn't get married but more of a "why wasn't it me" line of thinking. It brings up questions of my mind set and attitude of not only my commitment to a woman but also my attitude towards work and by effect how I go through my life. Have I allowed work to be the protective shield in my life, using work as the overall excuse to not participate or to even block people and prevent them from getting close to me? Has my persistence in maintaining a job/career been truthful and the side effect been that of an unintentional personal blockade? I've placed so much into trying to be my best at my job, even when it wasn't recognized or appreciated and for what - to be a lonely workaholic with no prospect for a fullfilling future with a good woman? 

Because of my childhood (such as it was) I have fears that I'll repeat the cycle but those fears have pigeon-holed me into isolation...

I'm happy for my past "ex"s, my past lovers who have found happiness and love and marriage but it gives me saddness knowing that even though the time I spent with these women was beautiful, that I wasn't the man that could give them the love, attention and compassion they needed to be complete.

It's possible that I won't be able to give that until I can come to grips my own demons...